" I NEED GREEN TO SEE RED "

Dear Ee Lin,

What's up? Haven't heard much from you. Hope you're doing alright.

I hope something's wrong with your phone because you haven't been answering my calls or replying my texts. I hope you're having a tight schedule since you haven't been replying my instant messages online or replying me on your wall in face book.

I don't want to think the worst of what could be happening. I believed it's not true. And you're not that kind of person to be doing that sort of things. I look forward to reunite with you since you love Reunions.

I miss you Ee Lin,

Khair

Spank at 4:00 PM

Sometimes I feel, people don't take me seriously.

I know I'm not perfect and all that bullshit.

But can't one see that whenever I'm serious about 'touchy-touchy' situations, I am sincere.

I never want it to be "oh hello goodbye thing" hope to meet you in future again.

That kinda thing sucks I tell you. Especially if you ever fell for that person.

I know sometimes things don't work out, but to hear that all the time being together as whatever doesn't mean anything to you just breaks my heart fully.

I feel used alright. Nobody ever wants to look at it from my point of view. You wanted it to be your way. It's only when I get angry and make a fuss out of things then you will finally noticed "hey! khair's upset"

I have the right to be upset considering the way you treated me. And at times, I chose not to be upset for you. I don't know even if you noticed that. I sacrificed a lot for you yet nothing I do really matters. If you love him instead, go secure a bond or something, be engaged, get pregnant or something.

Yes that was meant to be sarcastic.

But really, being in that open relationship shit.

I can find at least 10 people to agree with me that that's

BULLSHIT

And those 10 people I can find, can all be your friends. Believe me when I say that. Don't come up with shitty reasons like "oh we love each other but we're not ready to get back together" , "oh we're like taking this 'break' ".

I say fuck that. Honestly. If both of you fail once, fine it's alright. But from my observation, loving-loving or not, you guys fight all the time. I can tell.

And you being lovedrunk, forgive his every mistakes. Just because you're lazy to get out of a relationship with him, you psycho-ed yourself into loving him.

You've done a good job.

Toodles.

I shall see you in hell(:

not that I'll be there though.

Spank at 11:33 AM